AR-THIRST-Y

I've created a new journal. I will write there in polish. This is link http://ar-thirst-y.ownlog.com/

Enjoy

The time of exams is coming. Time of the hard work, time of intensive studying. I've got a lot of things to do. But atmosphere in my house is very bad. My parents argue almost all the time. My mother always accuses me: that I'm an egoist, that I'm selfish and so on. Very often I want to run away from here.

And besides I can't concentrate on studying. It's terrible. First of all I haven't got motivation. This is the most important issue I have to fight with.

But there are some good news. On friday we (I and my girlfriend Ada) are going for the student's party ( called JUVENALIA) and there will be one of my favorite bands - Myslovitz. They are realasing the new CD on this day. I can't wait until this day.

And one more important thing. I love Ada every day more and more. She gives my huge huge strenght to fight with every next day. I can't imagine what would I do, if she was gone...

Another sleepless night with books. I hope it will be productive. Maybe this time... :/ In breaks I'll get straight my poems. Assuredly I'll place some on Art-The-Fact forum.

There are so many things I want to write here. So many thoughts. I don't know how to begin. But I don't have time now. I have to STUDY :)

I've just return from studies. I didn't know answers for many questions in this test. I think I don't pass it. But well, I'll have to write it one more time. Now I'm going to wash dishes [:o)], and I'm going to read some notes for tomorrow ending test of clinic anatomy. It's not so difficult, but I have to althoug read it.

In the eavning I'm going to teach maths some boy. I have to earn some money :)

And I miss so hard my girlfriend. Ada, I love you so much. I just want you to know that, my sweetheart :*

Więc tak jak zaznaczyłem piszę po polsku. Jeszcze kawał nocy przede mną. Fuck!! Jak strasznie brak mi mobilizacji. Eh... Muszę się wziąść w garść wreszcie. Mam kupe zaległości. Pieprzona AM!!

Tęsknie za Adą. Kocham ją ogromnie i nie wyobrażam sobie życia bez niej. Jest cudowną osobą, daje mi tyle szczęścia, że nie mam gdzie go pomieścić. Nie mogę się doczekać tego naszego wspólnego wyjazdu do Anglii :)

Mam tyle planów i zamierzeń a tak strasznie mi brak ostatnio motywacji do czegokolwiek. W najlepszym przypadku rozpoczynam coś i nie kończe tego. Mam możliwości i potencjał, ale nie potrafię tego wykorzystać. Może użalam się nad sobą, ale takie są fakty. Ktoś lub coś musi mi wymierzyć solidnego kopa w mózg. Może wtedy zacznę coś robić ze sobą. Z drugiej strony sytuacja w moim domu mnie dobija. Mam dość bycia jakimś kozłem ofiarnym. Aby się uwolnić od ich czczej gadaniny zrobię dużo. Tylko muszę coś zrobić.

Posiedzę jeszcze trochę, ale już raczej nie za długo. C-ya..

My english is not so good, so probably I'll make some mistakes. But on the other hand I will learn more in this way.

I've been thinking for a long time about some kind of a diary and I decided to write my journal there cuz' my beloved girlfriend showed me this page, and I think is nice.

I have a lot of work to do tonight. Perhaps I'll be larning all night cuz' tomorrow I have some kind of test. I have so much time for study (11 days), but I was so lazy and I didn't even open my book. For some time I have problems with learning. I can't concentrate and mobilize myself. Eh... Always the same :/

Maybe you can ask, why at this picture is gadabout, snufkin or włóczykij as we said in Poland. Once somebody told me that this character fit in to me. Hmm... And I must agree with this person. In some cases. Beside this I really like him.

I don't feel comfortable to write in english, so probably I will write as yet in polish. When I improve my skills I'll start writinng in ehglish. It's all for now. But the night is long...